At least you have that much logic & rational thinking going on for yourself. Hold onto this & you have a better fighting chance of winning over the ED.

The first time I struggles with anorexia.....I didn't have that fight within me any longer because of other issues that were going on in my life.

I know for me after being in the ED treatment hospital, they forced you to drink sustical any time you didn't eat all of your meal.....I got so sick on those drinks that I can't even drink them when my anorexia is under control & I just want something easy to get my some nutrition when I don't feel like cooking....tried several times....but just couldn't even swallow them. Don't think that the treatment centers know the damage they end up doing with the way they handled the eating there.JMO.....sure that others didn't react in the same way.