not doing so hot today. I don't post in here a lot, but I am trying to pick up the pieces from a major depression I went through over the summer. I was on partial disability from work for 3 months because of it, and I went back to full-time last week. I believe this episode was caused by 1) my continued frustration from trying to get my social anxiety under control, 2) I hate the city I live in and am unable to leave due to financial problems, lack of self-confidence, and said social anxiety, and 3) biological susceptibility to depression. Anyway, my attitude is just ****** and apathetic today. For instance, I overslept (because I couldn't sleep last night) and missed my shrink appointment this morning, and I'm really not upset. I just don't care about anything or anyone right now. I even think, what's the point of treating this? I've been trying for over half my life and I still go around and around with the same problems. I'll just coast through the rest of life, I gave it a good try. I'm not actively thinking of suicide or anything like that, but I do wonder what would happen if I just didn't wake up one morning, for whatever reason. I know everyone and their brother says exercise helps curb depression, but I'm ****ing tired and despise it. I just. don't. care.