I don't even know if this is the right place to post this, but I am freaking out right now. I just had the worst job review I have ever had in my life. The boss was very critical and strict, I don't really disagree with what was said however. I just feel worthless right now. The problem is that I work for a very small place and there was not a lot of opportunity for training, I have to learn as I go. Because I am still trying to recover from my brain injury, I am a bit more rigid in my routine and have issues remembering things unless I write them down. (apparently my note taking is an issue)

I am still on a probationary period, and he voiced that there are a lot of concerns that this is going to be the right fit for me. I am so scared, and it just brings up a lot of the "you're never going to be good enough" issues for me as far as messages told to me when I was younger. I sat there and took it though, I guess I should have fought harder and mentioned that it has only been 4 months and that this is not exactly an easy job to learn when there is no background or prior experience on my part. Not excuses, I know, but WHY wait until 4 months into it to tell me this? I didn't even think there was a problem!!! I get BORED here at work for gosh sakes...I have created projects for myself, I have studied books and the notes that those in my position before me have left. I don't know. Maybe I'm not good enough for anything but food service. (that's all I ever did before this "real" job...Real being in quotes because mom and dad don't view anything I did before this as an actual worthy occupation)

I am very smart, articulate, and self-sufficient, and yet I have allowed to let the words of this person make me feel like a piece of useless garbage. I am NOT perfect by any means, but I have NEVER performed at less than satisfactory EVER in any position that I have held. Maybe I have been spoon-fed and sugar-coated all my life. I need to breathe. I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure.

Sorry if this was the wrong forum to post this in.