Hello. I am new here and not sure how all of this works. I have a hard time opening up - but since none of you know me, I think I can make a start here.

I do not know where to start. So this first thread will be some background on me and some information about my anxiety problems and how I think I am depressed.

A little back ground first: We have been married for 15 years. We have no children - no pets of any kind. I run a business out of the home and my husband works full time job outside of the house.

I have had anxiety problems since I was a young child. Examples: Bite finger nails since I can remember (still do this), chewed lace off shirts when mom sent me to school for the first time, would throw up from nerves when around crowds of people (although I do not throw up, I still get very nervous around crowds of people and avoid it as much as possible).

Let me start by saying I am not suicidal, however I do want to run away and start all over. I also still have my sensible emotion and know that grass is not greener on the other side.

All I do is cry and work anymore. Seriously - I am not sure I want to be married anymore, I am not sure I want to run my business anymore, I am not sure I want to work for someone else again. I am very sad and unhappy right now and am not sure how life is suppose to be for me. If this is it - I do not like it. I can not concentrate on work, I feel anxious and can not sit still, I even have a hard time watching a 30 minute show, I get up during every commercial to do something (nothing in particular), I can not sleep (sleeping has always been issue for me, since I was little)

I have taken the online depression test and my score was 65.

My story is a lot longer than this. But this is where I will start. Thanks for reading and listening to the beginning of my story.

Sadly Unhappy
Depressed “I think”