((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

You sound a lot like me.... I remember those days (heck: years) and what I have found was that I had not totally resolved all of my past wounds and that I was NOT happy with ME.... the person that was lost a long the way of life.
I personally feel that being on the mood swing / anxiety medicine (Celexa) that my GP placed me on six months ago was the best thing I ever did.... I can now think and feel as a normal person does.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -