Ok, I put the trigger here because this may be too much for some folks.

PLEASE DO NOT READ FURTHER IF YOU HAVE GUN/CHILDHOOD TRAUMA ISSUES

I kept this inside for 23 years and need to get it out.

At the age of 6, I was attending 1st grade and a man came to my school and opened fire on the 1st-3rd grade recess, he used an AK47. All of a sudden I felt my leg get hot and the fire alarm go off. I made it 50-60 feet to the door of the class and passed out. As I was walking I have a vague image of a good friend lying on the ground. When I awoke 2 teachers were standing over me utterly freaking out. I saw my leg with a 1in hole or so and a large, slow moving pool of blood around me. Next thing I was on the lawn strapped to a stretcher. My next memory is waking up in the hospital a few days later. Eventually I learned I had 2 blood transfusions and a skin graft.

My memory before that time is utterly gone and the next few years are a blur.

My question is how is the best way to approach childhood trauma much later in life. I truly do not trust psychiatrists and would rather talk to folks with similar experiences.

How do I get over my distrust of psych doctors? I lived and she died... I have a hard time with losing friends and will show no emotion at funerals. It probably doesnt help living in one of the most dangerous cities in the US.