Hi Zen.....I'm so sorry about how horrible you're feeling. Sending warm thoughts and hugs, but how I wish I could do more to help. One thought I did want to express.....Anyone who would slam the door in your face could never be called a "success" in my book. You deserve more, and much better, than that. I pray that some comfort comes to you soon, and at the same time that you post whenever you need ~want to ~whimsy Oh and thanks for mentioning the animal shelters! I agree so much