(((((((((((((Tinkerbell)))))))))))))

I know you a little bit and I'm so grateful for that connection. I just want to say... it's not all hopeless. You haven't lost or failed. You have gone through a really difficult time and survived it. You are now going to face the aftermath, which is often more difficult and more prolonged. It's okay to not be okay for a while. It's okay to let go and be sad. But you're precious and loved. You are needed because there are specific things that only you can do. Please do take care of yourself. But know also that a temporary slip up is NOT the end of the world - you have not failed, you are strong because you've come this far. Many hugs, Tink...