Hello,
My name is Erin.
I have been dealing with depression most my life. I have plenty of ups and downs and right now is definitely a down. I just feel so alone and I don't want to do anything and everytime I try to go out of my way to talk to someone they ignore me or I am only wanted around when it is convenient for the other person.

Relationships:
I keep finding weird messages on my boyfriend's Mocospace.
I love him more than I am ever able to understand, but sometimes I don't feel like I get his all. I know he loves me but I just can't feel ok about anything ever. I find myself hacking into his profiles constantly and second thinking everything he says. I am paranoid and scared he will leave me or worse that I will run him off.

My parents seem to just want to control me and I might be 20 but they treat me like I am 5. No matter what I do it is wrong. No matter what I feel ... I am being dramatic...

I just want to feel Okay again...