Thank you both for your understanding and kind words of encouragement. Feel a little better today, but being careful. Don't want to do anything to cause me to slide. I know I don't need to give an explanation or an apology, but I can't break old habits.....feelings don't mean anything, wasting other's time, invalidation, must apologize. Been doing it my entire life; can't stop now, even among people who "get it". I'm sure it makes me look weak and uncertain among people who don't understand, but when have I ever been certain or stood up for myself? I stand up for myself only to ask for forgiveness a few minutes later.... I'll be alright. I'll survive, this round.