***Please very intense stuff***take care in reading

Talked to my T today in session about the Mur*er in my past as a Teen..right now we have several serial killers in our area and the news is saturated with it...police..trying so hard..but it is aggravating the PTSD symptoms..I am getting shakey when police drive by and whincing at things that remind of the past event..things that just happen to be in my enviroment..and normally would not set me off..but right now its like huge problem..T didnt know I was having these issues because well..I deal with it..I have my plastic bag in case I need to up chuck..and when the flashbacks get to strong..thats the problem I need to talk about it..because I feel that a part of me is left there in that room with the victim..just staring..not breathing..until the policeman took me out of the room..
and I dont know how to unstick it..how not to feel lost and panicky right now when I see so many patrol cars canvasing the areas, and the news reports..I think of her (Victim)..and her staring right at me..horror..we have been working on the dissociation disorder..so hard..so havent told how bad its been getting until today..now we are changing direction a little to focus on this..and ..just trying to remember to breathe...but I am reliving it..and I just need some help with it..dont know what to do to cope..