So I made some positive changes in my life,

Bought a condo,
Joined a Gym,
Hired a Trainer,
3 weeks till hockey starts,

I am losing weight getting in shape.

today I seen my ex with her new BF at work, I lost my head just was angry for the rest of the day, could not focus, like a rage that sits in the pit of your stomach,

When I see couples in public happy I get a similar feeling, of envy and anger that I cannot feel that or be remotely happy.

All these changes and still I feel inadequate and worthless.