I did not know anything was wrong. I broke up with my boyfriend and couldn't seem to get over him so I went to a therapist who told me I had major depression. When I went to the pdoc to get meds, he diagnosed me as bipolar I. It was only after that diagnosis that the cycles became apparent. I remained non-compliant and in denial for about 8 years until I started cycling daily. One day I switched from mania to depression in the course of minutes. It was only then that I understood what everyone had been trying to tell me. My moment of truth.

I've been cycle free for the last 4 weeks. The longest stretch of time in the last 15 years. Thoughts that I am cured and don't need meds anymore are cropping up. Let's hope I can ignore them.