i think Pc is a good place to start.. encoraging words from other members did help me with going to the county...... even though my story of the county isn't great, still with other members stories it does help to think and encourage seeing someoe plus to talk to others.

getting your story out helps, you've taken a step by postng.

i my self have doubts and one fear of being locked away was smushed by going.
i have trust issues too, but sometimes it does help, with the right environment to try it out
best wishes
hopefully someone else has some more encouraging words