Yes, I understand completely. Night time is the worst part of the day. Everyone asleep, laying there awake thinking about how bad everything is and why I am so rotten. I wish I could offer words of wisdom here, but unfortunately I cannot, I wanted to let you know you are not alone. We have to be strong, learn how to shut out those feelings and sleep. Hang in there, if you need to talk, pc me at any time. Be strong