Thank you so much for your concern and advice.
I am seeing a therapist or was... just got too lazy to make appointments... I just don't feel worth anything sometimes.
As for my boyfriend he has cheated before and I have found sexual messages on his mocospace. I am scared he will do it again... I only stay with him because I know he cares for me. We are best friends and we have a wonderful time together. I just couldn't see my world without him. I love him and I know he loves me.
Also, I will try my best to keep posting.
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Originally Posted by Leed
Hi dear Erin and Welcome! Oh gosh, I know how you feel. I've been depressed since I was a small child. I dont' remember EVER feeling "normal" (whatever that is). And I don't have any friends -- unless like you, they want something from me. Those arent "friends." 
Do you REALLY have reason not to trust your boyfriend? Does he disappear for a day or so and you can't contact him? What kind of weird messages are you talking about that you find? Are they from girls? Does he act guilty whe you find them? Does he get mad?
Unless yiou have REAL proof that your boyfriend is cheating, let up on him. Don't accuse him of something unless you have real proof or you WILL drive him away.
As far as your parents, why not sit them down and ask them if they would PLEASE start considering you as an adult? Tell them that you have had to make your own decisions for awhile now, and that you don't like being treated like a 5 yr old. Be nice and loviing when you talk to them, but make it clear you want to be treated as an adult. I'm sure they will understand. Sometimes parents forget that their kids DO grow up. 
Are you seeing a therapist now? If not, it might be a good time to. If you cannot afford it, or if your parents can't, go see Social Services and see what their Mental Health services can offer. Are you in school? Your College has a counselor. Talk with him/her. That's what they're there for.
I wish you the very best Erin and will you please let us know how you're doing from time to time? If you get into therapy, let us know please? And keep posting cause it will do you good. God bless. Hugs, Lee
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