Happy to hear that you're reaching out for the help you deserve. As to why you're trying to talk yourself out of it, please try to remember that depression can tend to distort your thinking, and I believe we need to try and ignore the voice of the demon.....because he could care less about us. But no matter how much it may feel that way at times, he is NOT us. Wishing you all the best at your first session..... ~whimsy "Faith is taking the first step when you don't see the whole staircase."