Wow Blue, damn!!!

I have no advice for the business part, I have absolutely zero knowledge about anything business orientated.

This is some serious heavy duty stuff. Sounds like you are burnt right out. And ya deservedly so. It reads like the twilight zone, the twilight zoniest bit of all is that you are still plowing on.

This sucks cause I know your situation and the outside help thing, which is what you really need and cannot have at the same time. I wish I could offer you real life help, because you really need it. And all I can do is words, and that's so not good enough right now.

This is where forgive and forget go two separate ways for me. I can forgive a person of many many things. The forget part no, and I don't remember the event to cause the other person pain, but I do use it to keep myself aware.. you can't really forget when you need to remember.

I hope someone comes a long with some help for you on the business end of this. Is there anyone else in your family that can help keep things alfoat there for now.

Blue, many many many hugs to you. I am so sorry that you've been given this dish right now. Sending you all the positive thoughts I can, hopefully something somewhere is going to give!!!