I don't understand how parents could personally try to make there kids mad. My parents do it all the time to me. It makes me feel so bad. I hurts me so much. I don't understand what I did to them. Oh, I remember I was born. If they wanted to treat me like this why did they even have me. The worst thing is there is nothing I can do about it. I can't leave yet I don't have the money. I do plan to move out as soon as I can support myself but that isn't soon enough. It is not just them though it is everything. I feel like my world is closing in on me and there is no way out. I mean I have a boyfried who I love and he knows about all of this. He is great and helpful. He is my only support though and I need more. He shouldn't be the only thing that makes me happy. Don't get me wrong I love him but other things should make me happy and they don't. I feel like I am going numb. Someone help me! I know everyone will say go to a doctor. I do. I don't see her a lot because of my parents. I don't know what I need anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't even feel like crying. It seems to be a waste and doesn't solve anything. Whatever life sucks.