So Im pretty sure Im slipping into depression. Pretty sure I know why too. I realised yesterday that I hadnt taken my abilify for I guess its been all week. I packed all my meds in a plastic bag to go to my moms for the night and left my abilify in the cabinet and I have been taking my meds out of that bag all week. I cant believe I didnt notice it missing all week its the only white bottle of meds I have.

Just noticed I havent had a shower in two days and dont have the energy to stand up and wash my hair or body but i really havent left my couch so who cares right? Im also going through a treatment thats very strenuous on your body and mind. Its been rough but Im making it. They compare it to chemo. I swear sometimes I would rather roll over and die, but thts just the depression talking I will keep fighting. Some days are better than others. Some days Im up and ready to start the day at 5am Some days I dont wake up at all. Some days Im so weak I litterally can not stand for 5 seconds because my legs buckle benath my weight. I only have 4 1/2 months left to go. My body has already cleared the virus. Thank God for that.

I feel like I am whining today. I try to be positive all the time but I guess sometimes thats hard to do.