(((Crystal)))

Sorry you're struggling so much right now. 4 1/2 months?? Oh dear. Do you have any supports in place? Maybe pay someone to come clean the house, ask people to take the kids once in a while or maybe bring a meal in now and then? Not sure what your finances are like, but home cleaning services are pretty reasonable if you only have them come in a couple of times a month.

Hopefully it won't take long for your Abilify to kick back in. I just increased mine and was amazed at how quickly I felt it working. It's a good med. Are you taking any vitamins? B vitamins especially are good for energy. And make sure you're eating, as much of a struggle that may be. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

Try to hang in there. Know that we're here. And please ask for some help with the day to day stuff. You're just not able to do it right now.