OMG!!! please don't condemn yourself for your bodies response to a stimulus!!! if you read Courage To Heal you will discover that it is common for survivors of sa to fantasize about rape and violence... please don't judge yourself too harshly... think about what you're dealing with and perhaps that will provide some insight as to why your body responded to your dream in the manner that it did!and it totally doesn't mean that you liked the abuse or do like it!!! it means that your body is still responsive!!!! ((((((((((((((((HUGS!!!!!!))))))))))))))))))))