I have a migraine - got dehydrated at an office bbq party where only soda (which I do not drink) was served. Dehydration causes migraines just ilke that. And I am worried because I am moving on the 30th (this includes the ordeal of locking two cats in one bathroom for the duration of the move and having the third cat spend time with a volunteer from the local cat rescue agency because he is not that friendly with the other two cats to safely let them stay in one bathroom for hours) and he is arriving, most likely, on the 1st - back to back. But I already told him that I will be unpacked. With the migraine and the worries about the move, I am yet to feel the excitement, but I am sure it will be coming.

I have decided against writing to him. It would be cynical to do so. I have no feelings. I do not FEEL remorse. I only realize, on an intellectual level, that I SHOULD feel remorse. And that realization is already an advancement for me. I might print out the letter and give to him in person, though, if I start feeling that way and there is an opportune moment.