Well, for what it's worth to you. I have already died once and thee is no sexuality, excitement or romance involved. There is peace and so much love that you feel like you could soak it up with a sponge. I had a near death experience and I don't know what you think is there but I'm pretty sure it isn't at all what you think. If your thoughts are deviant or troubling the perhaps you should see a therapist. I wish you well.