I was embarrassed and scared to seek help at first. This might be why your hesitant to go. Now I wish my parents had helped get me to see someone when I was a kid. I would of been dead if I didn't seek help. It's such a relief, my first session I was so nervous and I cried uncontrollably. But it has helped so much. Give it a shot, it's confidential so you don't have to worry about anyone else finding anything out.