Cocoa,

I really understand this, I do. My bf gets depressed often, and I feel like I have to be up when he is down. or it's a disaster. Especially since he isolates when he is down, and I need to be closer when I am down, it's a huge clash of needs.

I don't really have friends irl, I have two sisters, who have their plates full. I don't like to be the one bringing them down, or the bipolar needy sister either. So I keep my stuff to myself.

I know I should say, you will not be bringing your friends down, that's what they are for good and bad. That you probably are there for them if they need you right? Hard to say it if I don't do it. But I know that it's probably true.

All I can really say is I feel for you, and yes it is a lonely situation sometimes. It makes me feel lonely too. Do you have even one friend you can confide in, and try to ignore the negative feelings about talking to them?

I mean you can always talk to us here, but it isn't the same, and I know that.

Don't think you broke any rules at all.

Yes, the no meds thing.. hmmm I have not had to deal with long lasting depression yet off them, I was never on ad's though anyways, I tried them a few times for a few weeks here and there. Are meds an option in your mind, if you get to a point where you really can't cope?