I don't mind you're a bit drunk Cocoa, just don't want to let it turn into a totally regular thing, ya know? I took my 2 clonopins, but they're not doing ****, I could go for a beer but have none.

This is hard to have your husband have bp also. I envy you in a way, because you have a husband, and one who knows what bp is, and knows from his experience you are not making anything up. You could try my non-emotional bf, and see how quick you kick his boring *** out the door.

You could try some of the friends to see if they're willing to be there for you when you're lonely. Some can handle it, some can't.

I really hope this is a bump you can ride out, and get back to the mellow happiness.

Just keep talking and posting. I'm trying to stay here and not follow my wild hair out to the bars.