I'm really glad I found this forum! I just learned over Labor Day weekend that my mom, who was/is my primary abuser, has terminal skin cancer and is not expected to die in the next few months (the doctor gave her 6 months, but I frankly think she'll die long before then). I know I'm SUPPOSED to feel sad and badly and everything, but all I can really feel right now is HAPPY and OVERJOYED that I will soon be FREE of this soul-crushing harridan! I don't wish death by cancer on anyone, but I've longed to be free of her for so long that I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. I know that I'll be going through alot of different emotions in the coming months, but right now I'm just excited at the prospect of having a life without the fear that she currently produces in my life. Seeing that others have gone/are going through the same struggles as me is tremedously helpful and encouraging! My mother and I have ALOT of unfinished business, and I've accepted that it will never be finished. I do plan to have the last word, however. I'll will have a letter to mother stating EVERTHING that I think of her, and I will making sure that it is in the coffin with her when she is buried!