Harley, how sweet you are! And that is a good question about connection. I was laying in bed with my new bf and just loved him holding me. Just having his arms around me. I want to feel close to someone. And no we still haven't completely gone all the way..in case you were wondering. I really want it to be special this time. I want to do things differently. Im not even sure i can call him a bf because we have only been out three times. Two of those times were at his house though...lol. I really like him. And he respects my wishes to so well. We fool around in the most dangerous ways, but he always stops. I want him sooo bad.. but he knows i want it to be special. Unfortunately as I was driving home this morning, I texted him saying i was ready. Which means now next time that is what he will expect. Yes I want him like a big mac..but I want to be differenet too. This making us wait is so hard on the both of us. I figure im going to do it anyway, so why wait, but on the other hand...I want to be different. Im suppose to have another date today with another guy...but there is no way im doing it with him. He has the perfect personality, but not the looks..which keeps me from wanting to.
I want that lay in be with my arms around my partner feeling every night. I want the feeling I get when he does it to me. I want to make him so excited he can't stand it. We keep saying we are going to have a decent date, without the fooling around, but Im not sure its going to happen. I want someone to totally fully accept me.