The co-facilitator of my group T, who I really like and value, is leaving the group after two more sessions. I shared on our group blog that I felt sad, expressed my appreciation of her, and said that I realized that over the year she has been with us that I've shared so little about myself that she didn't get a chance to really know me.

She responded saying that we still have two weeks left for me to share with her....

I was like...

On a professional psychological level, I'm curious to know if her experience of me over the last year would be better understood if she had some knowledge of my history. But I have no idea what to share!

Do I share the trauma history? Would that be helpful?
Do I share what I'm like now and what my current struggles are?
Do I share my experiences over the years that stand out to me?
Do I not bother, because it really is just too late?

Whatever I share would need to be shared with the group as a whole, so I'm not quite sure I want to go there.....As you may know, I haven't disclosed much of my past trauma in group T for fear of being judged, viewed differently or feeling less than and shameful. My goal has been to create safety in the room to be able to explore these types of things...but I'm not yet there.

Is this an opportunity take that plunge? What am I waiting for? Or, am I going to hold onto this stuff forever and never let people IRL in?

ACK! The pressure!