splitimage i could be mistaken but i believe all the recent changes in your life have caused a stress related boomerang effect. meaning we get thru the stressors and then wham it rears it's ugly head after we've done what we had to do..and then not too far off we're hit with the urge to drink. yet the stressor is fixed.
plus your sobriety time is being challenged by the lure of alcohol. i'm glad you're going to a meeting tonite. hope you'll share about what u wrote here to the group. the support you recieve will strengthen your resolve to stay sober.
you're doing what needs to be done to stay sober too. you're talking about it here even tho you have already thought the drink thru. reminding yourself from whence you came and the hopeless feeling we get when drinking will help also.