I agree with Christina! Two years is a long time and you should be so proud of yourself. Just because you did it once recently doesn't mean that you have failed or will do it again. You are strong enough to fight it. Keep using the strategies that have worked for you for the past two years and remind yourself how beautiful you are. You have worked so hard, and I am so proud of you. We are all here if you need someone to listen. Do you have a therapist to talk to?