I think youare so strong! I wish I as strong as you. Keep saying no. I am a little frustrated myself with a new guy. He takes a while, but not hours..it makes me feel less of a woman, but I agree with the other posts that it could be the way he is...the same thing on someone else would have different results. Im hoping that if I get better at it, then it wont take as long..however with your past, that doesnt seem to be the problem. Dont worry. I wonder if you two can talk about it so you feel afirmed in what you are doing that he likes. I always have those talks so I can make the most of our time together. I hope this is helpful. Im sorry if its not.