i'm missing a friend today. i started thinking about him late last night. You see we use to be really close earlier in this year. We both were going through hard times. I guess in away we both needed each other. He was the person that i knew i could call at 3 in the morning if I needed someone.

One night though in June we did something we shouldn't have done. We both agreed that we'd just leave it at that. But its been over a month and i haven't heard from him at all.

i saw him just the other day and he wasn't the same. I miss him, but i miss the person he was, not the one i saw just a while ago.

Its harder then i thought it would be. I don't really have a lot of close friends. He was the first person i could really share everything with. HE did the same with me. ( or at least i thought he did)

We took care of each other, and now i'm once again on my own. I feel strange now trying to pick up the phone. I'm figuring why would he want to listen to my problems? I'm doubting everything we had.

I feel horrbile, i never thought i'd lose him, but i think i already have.