Gia - yes, I think he has come to terms with going. he very easily feels abandoned and so this has taken time for him to process in his head that this change could be good. he'll be living in a shack with no running water with his dad, but it is *on* the beach, sunset beach. very healing place, i've never felt so whole as when i lay in the shallow waves getting cuddled and rocked by mama island, mama ocean. and i'm keeping hope that he will one day understand that i'm not abandoning him, trying to give him opportunities, which he's been shutting out with drug addiction.

Dan, thank you. Yea i want to kill this guy, he's 28, hanging out with 16 year old and giving them meth. and you're right, he's not going away. my son ended up getting something and was high all night. altho, he said, mom it's not meth i promise, i'm just on acid and mollies(extasy i think). so it's a little crazy around here. very touch and go. yea, it's dad's turn to step up and take a turn.

my other ex, youngest's dad, is here today helping fix the doors and sheetrock the holes in walls. older son loves him so they're working on it together. so i'm happy to get ready for the appraisal. But the ex is detoxing from alcohol right now and doing manual labor so i'm a little worried about him. he's sweating profusely.. gets seizures sometimes when he quits it's a crazy life around here right now!