You are not alone while you are here. All of us are dealing with depression and can relate to what you are feeling. If I were you, though, I'd lose the boyfriend. You know he has cheated before and he will again. If there is no trust the relationship has a major problem. The stress and worry over him is not good for you either. It just increases the depression. Leed nailed the parents thing and it's good advice. Good Luck sweetie.