I'm just now allowing myself to call myself a 'self-injurer' (SP). For years, my anger triggers me to hit myself in the head or bang my head against a wall. The worst I've ever done is try to choke myself with a belt. Gosh, I feel shame for even typing that out and I hope it's ok to do so. ?? Anyway, I think I've finally done some real damage because I get have really bad dizzy spells as the frequency of my head banging or hitting myself in the head has been on the increase. (Meds have been helping and I have done it in about 5 days) Weird though, when I mention this behavior to the T, she didn't act as if it was a big deal and to me it was the hardest thing to say aloud to another human that hasn't actually seen me do it.

I feel ashamed.