"What does it do to you that draws you in? If you self-medicate, what feelings does alcohol cause? What sensations?"

It erases all of my inhibitions. I can't sit at home and get drunk off beer. I have to go to the bar and drink liquor and dance and sing and "have fun". It erases any anxiety, insecurities, and makes me feel free. It makes me stop caring.

"If you are addicted, how do you experience it? What makes it impossible to stop after a small dose?"

When I drink liquor, I don't stop 'til I blackout almost everytime. I lose control. I can't stop and I don't want to stop because I don't care about anything anymore. It is what it is and it's awful. I drink rarely but when I do, I binge and I need to stop.

I agree with much of what mojave has said also.