(((((Irishsj)))))
I am running away from any kind of real relationship because of just that reason. I can date and have a one night stand but anything more serious then that and I begin to lose it-one way or the other because I am convinced-I am NOT designed to be loved and accepted for the person I am because I am a total basket case.

I don't have any advice for it. I'm actually thinking of putting an ad on one of those online dating things with an absolute truth version of who I am.
"Basketcase looking for someone who can deal with heavy baggage and fear of not being loved because of past childhood abuses. Leave now-do not enter- No, I'm serious, You don't want me. I'm damaged goods. RUN AWAY-NOW-HURRY!!!!!!"
Don't think I'd get many responses so I think I'll keep it simple and stick with the dating and one night stands.
:P