Well my dad has now made himself ill by drinking. he goes through stages when he drinks, and it goes like this:

1.he drinks in the evening, gets quite drunk.
2.cant sleep at night, and has a panic attack in the night.
3.is really tired and grumpy the next morning, and feels quite ill from the drink (hangover).
4.he drinks in the morning to counteract the hangover (hair of the dog i think its called).
5.by the evening hes drunk.
6.goes to bed, and cant sleep etc.
7.wakes up ill, usually throwing up etc.
8.doesnt go to work because hes ill
9.so he stays at home and continues to drink.

and i would just like to add that throughout every stage he is really grumpy, and can get really horrible to be around because he gets annoying, tries to start arguements etc.

currently hes at stage 7, is ill at the moment, and i bet he doesnt go to work in the morning.

it is so frustrating for me to watch because i know theres nothing i can do for him. and like my councillor said, im the type of person to tries to "fix" everything and mend everything, so i hate seeing people like that. i wish i knew what to do.