Sunshine,
I've had OCD since i was 7 or 8, but it's never taken a hold on my weight so much as it has recently. Over the past 4 years i've lost 80lbs, a time during which i was preoccupied with my weight definately, but not obssessed. So after this weight loss, its just the fear of going back that terrifies me. It's such a slippery slope. I cry alot too when I feel myself slipping off my diet, it is pure hell to let such a trivial thing rule your life when I have so many other things that possess me on top of that. I have been trying to wait and give the zoloft a chance, but its been about 6 weeks and its only getting worse so i dont think i can afford to stay on it and keep bulging out. I'm happy that something has helped you be happier and less obssessive, it gives me some sort of hope in a way . I've thought about the group, its just that group therapy terrifies me (im horrible avoidant) and I'm currently in DBT group which is trying enough. I just keep waiting for something to click and stop me from crashing so hard so often. Thanks for everything dear

*hugs*