I know it's a horrible thing, but its almost as if im physically unable to even make myself take it when i know I need to in order to not end up back in the hospital again. I need to talk to my doctor definately, you are very right there. Being a unwilling patient is not helping me or my doctor I know, but my obsessions are able to make anything logical in its own way. It's irrational. I will def talk to my doctor, and I really am considering picking up my rx for my zoloft thats sitting at the pharm and just riding it out until monday so he wont be upset with me and i wont go diving off the deep end.
I would ask him to help me lose the weight, but i am definately not even close to needing to lose weight logically, and i would just come off as neurotic. I wish he could help me make it go away though.
Thanks for listening doll

*xoxo*