I feel as though everything I do leads to nothing. I've lost all my friends, no family. Even if I gained something in my life again. What would it be for... what would it mean. Would it just leave again as if nothing had happened. My life is just a recurring state of past lives I feel i'm living. There is no hope in my mind for anything. Although I tend to feel differently on some occasions. Maybe i'll change my mind tomorrow who knows.