I have issues. Lots of issues. Friday night/morning at work I felt the worst I have ever felt, although it seems that with each days passing I feel worse still. I finally decided that I have to gather up all the strength I have and somehow try to find help, and if I cannot, well I am not allowed to say what happens then. But I can't go on like this.

Some of you fellow PC'ers may have read some of my posts, and I have posted my story here before so I don't really want to say the whole thing again, it is too long. I am very depressed, negative, I hate my life and I see no point in anything. What I need is advice, for how to find help. I work and have benefits and I think I still go through myCIGNA, so I went onto that website to look up doctors. I don't know what to look for though, I don't know if I need a Psychiatrist, Psychologist, or Therapist/Counselor.

I have received on-campus counseling in my years in middle school through high school, and it didn't help me at all. If anything it actually made things worse. I also have a couple questions. What all am I allowed to say to one of these doctors? And can something I say get me into trouble? Will they put on my record that I am dangerous to myself? Because I don't want that.