Hi i just wanted to know if anybody out there share's my story or has some knowledge to help my situation.

This is my first real thread and i don't like sharing personal information but i'm at my wits end...

It started a couple of years ago, basically it ended up with me in hospital and diagnosed with severe depression, psychosis and anxiety. I've been on meds since and they helped me greatly.

The problem is really my feelings towards my family. when i was diagnosed my sister (textbook Narcissistic Personality Disorder) decided to get her fix by making my diagnosis about her. She made up incredible lies about my behavior and turned my whole family against me. now i'm the outcast and feel i have nowhere to turn for help now that me depression has returned.

I feel so lost, i have a wonderful partner but i hide my feelings from her because of how i hurt her when i wound up in hospital (the guilt still eats me alive)

Can anybody out there help or even relate?
my feelings have returned after a long stint of "normality" i've tried so many times to reconnect with my family but every time i do one of them attacks me in the most awful way,

Maybe i need my med's upped, i'm just so unsure, i hate feeling like this i don't know what to do, sorry for the long post and thank you so much just for reading.

((hugs))