You said you sometimes feel a little different so that shows change is possible for you. Don't lose hope. You need support from a therapist and other doctors. When you have a small support network, like it sounds like you have from your post, they can help fill it in for you so that you have people on your side. They can help support you until you feel better and are able to make new friends and to eventually meet a partner. Don't feel bad, there was a time when I felt only my therapist was on my side but I was able to feel better and now I have several friends who know what I'm going through and who care about me.

Hang in there and let us know how you are doing, I hope you get some relief soon, you deserve to have a nice day.