So I am experiencing a dilemma. I was recently dx bp and have just stared meds. I am on short term disability while adjusting to them (I work in a factory, not really a place I can afford to find out my meds make me dizzy or groggy). As far as my mom knows, I was on vacation last week.

I have not told her about my dx. When I was in high school, I saw a therapist for SI. My mom just told me it was stupid and that I should knock that *** off. So I am terrified of her reaction to my dx, especially since I am taking time off of work because of it.

On the other hand, my gf's mom said that I should tell her because if something were to happen to me, she should know, especially since my gf's family is aware of my situation. (This mostly was a concern for her when I was in my last depressive state, because of my thought patterns).

I just don't know whether it would be better to leave her in the blissful dark, or to go ahead and tell her of my dx, meds, and short term disability, and risk whatever her reaction will be. Honestly I'm afraid of her telling me that there is no point in me seeing a pdoc and getting medicated because it's "all in my head".

As a side note, I started taking my Lexapro Friday night and for the last two nights, I have had really vivid dreams. Does anyone know if Lexapro can cause vivid dreams or if it is just a well timed coincidence? Not that I'm complaining, I love dreaming, I'm just curious. I know when I used to take melatonin to help me sleep, it would cause me to have really vivid dreams.