Hi ThePuzzleisDeadInside,
(Can I call you TPIDI?)
That sounds confusjng and frustrating. Not only are you feeling sad and hurt about missing your ex fiance' but then you feel bad and guilty about not feeling those same feelings for your bf.
It's like having a feasted on Filet Mignon but then having to go and dine on T-bone steak because the Filet Mignon spoiled. The T-bone steak is great and it's yummy but it's definetly not Filet Mignon.

I hope time eases the pain. (((((TPIDI))))))