So Guys...

I had a drink (or a bottle), which I do regularly but I'm on tour again and by myself - which is the hardest! I'm by myself a good 2 weeks of every month. The drink hasn't stopped yet and I've been through 2.5 bottles of wine and still standing... now if that was Vodka - I could carry on forever. On tour though - the drugs are free?...

I don't want to change my career at the moment, or ever. I really like the people I have met and I love my lifestyle. Please understand that the people I work with do not support my lifestyle... People think I drink alot but think it's great that I don't ever seem to cave, throw up or make too much of an arse of myself (maybe), that's probably drug induced though?

I keep slapping myself in the face, but have always managed to find someone to supply.

Anyway, I'm not looking for any 'probs solved' or 'take it a day at a time' - i just want to know if someone's in the same boat.

I know you guys mean well
xxxxx

PS
Is anyone where I am at the mo? Good life, great friends (not druggies), but I'm still trying to kill my bank balance - and lose my mates in the process - although they're sound?