hi horsecab - i would recommend continuing to work on these feelings with your therapist. I personally try and turn my feelings of fear into something more productive - why don't you start looking at houses in this area and get as much information on what its like to live there? I think you're more likely to make an informed decision - not to mention feel less fearful - if you know the facts and are prepared as much as possible for what may lie ahead. I hope you seize this oppertunity as a new beginning - its sound as though after everything thats happened, you deserve nothing less. All the best.